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Wednesday, November 25, 2009
i need a hug... im afraid... i need a hug..
im afraid of loosing someone with my stupidity and carelessness. or am i just paranoid? shit! i hate this! i hate of bein so alone and no one can understands me! =( i want to cry but cryin alone isnt to crazy!? i want to talk to someone but who? i know there are people who can listen to me but how i can start talkin if im not sure and know how i can start and how i could say things...
i thought these things are over but im just fooling myself for acting everything is okay but its not. i need to go somewhere far, alone and be alone and think billion of things...
sorry... its been so long i want to say sorry...
matagal na.... i just dont know how to say it... pero im so sorry... sorry talaga... sana di nagkaganoon... di ko alam kung paano ako mag so-sorry.. at kung tama ba na mag sorry ako.
mukhang okay naman ang lahat diba? pero parang adic lang, okay ba talaga? o merong mga bagay na di napagtutuuanan na may mali pala at di malinaw? or naghahanap lang ako ng problema? parang di tama e... ang labo! sana mabasa... sana okay na lahat... sana maayos na... sana wala ng misunderstanding... sana di nagkaganoon... sana maging normal na... walang ilangan... Tuesday, November 24, 2009
my happy 25th! as i always do this every year, thanking all the people who makes my life special and super happy as ever... the people who greeted me THANK YOU!!! through facebook: through text messaging: over ym: over the phone: people who greeted me personally and who gave me a surprise kiddie party --- SALAMAT SA PUNONG ABALA SA SURPRISE PARTY! SUPER NA SURPRISE TALAGA AKO! MARTIN, brainee brother, thanks talaga! super thank you! di ko malagay sa words and kasayahan ko... thank you! RACHEL, CFAD-DSCC buddy! galing niyo ni itay!! akalain mo di ko sineryoso sinabi nio! kala ko yung taga kabila ung papatext niyo! hahaha! thank you! KIM, sister-ikbi, galing mo din! alam mo kng pano ako maitatago! hahaha! sa laki kong to! naitago mo sa akin to! hahaha!!! thank you! MAMA, dearly mother, grabe ma! kaya pala nun nag pasked tayo ng mass ayaw mo ng 6.. ako lang nag insist! hehehe... galing! ^_^ thank you! LEO, bestfriend, galing mo din! haha! pwede na pang awards ang arte! hehehe.. ^__^ thank you! YURI, ANN brainee brother and mother! love u guys!!! and to my sister CYAN, love u sis! LYAN, DANVER, ADRIAN, PAOLO, MYLO AND MOI, Futta... thank you nandun kayo to play and celebrate with me!!! super thank you!!! i cant put into words kung gaano ako kasaya that day!!! all of u guys made my 25th birthday super happy!!! thank you!!!! Tuesday, November 10, 2009
til... 8 days...
till my birthday trip with my mom and sister plus 2 of my aunts to Thailand baby!! woohoo!! last year i spent my birthday at Singapore now its Thailand. for my 25th and my mom's 60th birthday we're goin to have a blast!! 11 days yippeee!! 11 days to go and another year will start for me! its my 25th birthday!!! quarter life crisis? nah, i dont want that! hoho!!! >.< i will have a blast on my 25th year! but for the day i think i will have a "save-day" for my succeeding trips... ^__^ so no extra celebration.. i think? hehe.... 38 days and we are off to California baby! woohoo! hello christmas break at the west side! still praying to push through.. please... i wanna have a christmas with my cousins in USA... knowing that 5K's will be complete! damn! that would be so much fun! 45 days til spendin christmas at Cali... curious how they celebrate christmas in west... hmmm... new experience and im excited with that!!! =) 52 days and we are spending our new year at the sky!!! hahaha!!! yup... up, up, and away! lol coz our return flight is exactly new year time in Manila... hahaha!!! 96 days and its Valentine's day and still single by then... hahaha.. spending with all the single people! whats wrong dating with a group of singles?! hahaha... ***singing, ... all my single ladies! 116 days and the brainiacs will have a Seoul-searching! hahaha!!! me, cyan, ann, marts and yu will go to Korea baby!!! THIS IS IT!!!! woohoo!!looking forward for these trip! 1st trip with the brainiacs OUT OF THE COUNTRY!!! yipee!! woohoo!!! so much to look forward too! love it!!!! Friday, November 06, 2009
gelato. traffic is so terrible! errr! from my place to tomas morato, it took us 1 hour! and we are so damn hungry, plus the place we want to dine in is full. we had our dinner at 9ish at don henrico's and had our gelato at amici.
Monday, October 19, 2009
4 word + 25 years I realized that I should change some things that i get used to it. It's enough to think hundred times. 1 week of thinking and meditating on what I should do it my crazy life.
4 words; unexpected, unconscious, accept and change. There are things that are really unexpected and you should be prepared on what will happen. I should be strong on whatever will happen again, this past week I'm so drown on the some things that unconsciously I'm getting used to it, that I shouldn't. Now it's over… Things should be change, I should accept the signs I asked and things should be change. (*signs i asked from God.) I like to start my week right, get things on their right place and should walk on one path. Whatever corner I will pass, they are just add-on to my life and if the signs let me turn on their corners let it be. Go with the flow but I should walk on straight, aight! Thanks to the people who open up my mind and let me realize these things. "Hey girl, you are unconsciously doing some things that you shouldn't have to. Remember to act normal, you shouldn't doing that." Thanks girl! Smiling and looking forward for whatever my path will pull me through. In a month I'll celebrate my 25th birthday and I'm thinking on what I'll do on that day… hmmm… November 21, 2009, my 25th birthday, what I will do??? 12midnight I will have a flight going back to manila from Thailand. We will arrive at 5am at manila… hmmm… ill sleep and relax till 12noon… what I will do the rest of the day? From 12 noon to 12 midnight? 12 hours is a long day if I want do anything on my birthday! Hmmm… I want something special, unique and fun… hmmm… for sure ill go to church. So what's next? Karaoke alone? Clubbin? Malling? Dinner or lunch? Hmmm… I have 1 month to think. =) Looking forward for a great 25th birthday and a lifetime! Monday, October 12, 2009
baliw! effin!!!! errrr!!!!
nababaliw na ako!! di ko n alam kung tama pa ito! hahaha! na mabaliw?! pucha!
Friday, October 09, 2009
past weeks past week is a roller coaster… from the manila-wide aftermath of the typhoon to the personal stuffs that occur it was stressful and depressing at the same time.
1st having our interview for our US visa. Me and my mom got our new multiple visa but for my sister she didn’t get it. =( 2nd are the planning stuffs for the Thailand trip, we should find a cheaper tour itinerary 3rd is my cyclone life! LOL!!! I don’t what to get so emo mode but the heck! That cyclone is killin me! I want a peaceful like but what am I getting!? Errr! No one believes in me! Waaahhh or am I just in denial!? Darn! i know im not denying anything!!!!! I hope one day they will believe me and issues will be over! Errr.. Sunday, September 20, 2009
what i should feel? dont know whats happening... its over but some people couldn't take its over... so hard to have an awkward moment every time. and who wants an awkward moment? darn. i hope it will end.
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